Oh wow.
I'm soooo sore :(
I moved back to the parentals yesterday.
Used so many muscles that I NEVER use, thus resulting in a sore me today.
I have so much stuff to unpack and organise.
It's going to take me FOREVER!!
At least I'm going to be able to save some money while I'm here!!

Can't believe after living with Mel for almost 2 & 1/2 years and being friends for about 6 yrs, she never once offered to help me pack or move.
I don't expect people to do things for me, but fuck John offered to help take things back to mum and dads, Lizey offered to come over and help me pack, Tanya asked me if I needed a hand with anything, Leon and Nicky both offered their assistance.
Arlene came and stayed with me the night before, helped me finish packing and helped move things down.
Alanna spent Friday night in with me packing and then took me out for a drink to cheer me up and Mel didn't once offer her assistance, nore was she even there when I moved.
You are a cunt.
A selfish cunt with no true friends.
Enjoy spending the rest of your life in your room watching tv alone or wasting your time with your adulterous boyfriend who couldn't give two shits about you.
You reap what you sow and the way your behaving, you will have nothing and no one.

Grrrr good thing I got that out!

OK another vent..
I'm not aloud to take a date to Cristina's shitty backyard wedding.
It's in the backyard for fucks sake.
So I'm not going.
I've know her since I was 17 yrs old, 8 yrs and because I'm single, I'm not aloud to bring a date.
Apparently numbers are tight.
IT'S GOING TO BE IN THE BACKYARD.
HOW THE HELL ARE NUMBERS GOING TO BE TIGHT IN A BACKYARD WEDDING?!

It's going to be a revolting Penrith wedding with revolting Penrith people.
You know the type, they grew up in Penrith, they live and work in Penrith, their favourite hang out is the Log Cabin, they go to RSL dinners every week and while the "boys" get pissed on Bundi and coke the "girls" sit and talk about their upcoming weddings or the bargins they got at the plaza that day.
Sunday is spent watching their respective partners compete in team sports.
Their friends are all couples that have been dating the same person since they were in high school and most often their friends are their fiance's friends.
They're uncultured and tacky and the only thing that comes out their mouth in reference to me is "Do they hurt?" or "do you set off metal detectors?".
Morons.
So nay.
I am not taking a day off work to go to a wedding all alone with people I don't know, to feel like a loser and will cost me $150 in a gift.

Hmm I need to work out my train schedule and such...
I kinda want to go to the plaza and come back and have my room all organised...
Yeah right!
I'm going to look into transfering my credit card into a lower interest rate card, I've only got a $1,500.00 card but I might as well save myself the interest if I can.
I need to cancel my permit and get my money back from it, get my name taken off the electricity bill for 278, change my address with all my insurances and such.
Get my name taken off the lease, get my bond from Mel.
Call NRMA...
Change my address with Russh.
Damn.
So much to do :(
I need a personal assistant!

Getting off the internet.......NOW

Oh wow.
I am actually never drinking again.
Well not to get drunk anyway.
I have spent ALL DAY in bed, in front of the tv, laptop or sleeping AND EATING.
Eating shit too.
Can't believe I'm posting this...if I'm embarrassed posting it, it's obviously not good behavior and I wont do it again.

3 party pies
hamburger, small chips & coke from hungry jacks.
left over pad sew ew
water crackers with dip
pop corn at the movies
frozen coke at the movies
bite of Mel's hot dog at the movies
and pretty much a whole BIG bag of peanut m & m's

Best bit, I hate hungry jacks and coke.
Go figure.
Fat fuck.
I NEVER, EVER eat like this.
So why the hell did I today?
Seriously cannot remember the last time all I did was drinking all night.
I'm sticking to pills.
They're cheaper, easier on the gut and I feel the best the next day.
No hang over, no come down.
Mother Fucker.
It's almost midnight and I should be on a fucking treadmill or something.
For.
Shame.

Drank too much last night.
The house is a mess and I feel sick :(
Don't think it was really worth it...

Unsure..

I've been told some horrible information about people I know in the last few days...
I wont repeat it because nothing but shit will come from it.
It wont make anything better, just worse for a little while then back to normal so really there's no point in hurting people's feelings and proving myself un-trustworthy.
WHY did you choose to unleash it on me?
I don't want to know about it!

I've been home sick with tonsillitis for the last two days.
I don't really like being alone...it's boring and even though it's only while the housemates or friends are at work, I start to feel sorry for myself.
Why am I so lame?!
It also gives me time to think about all the stupid things I've said and done.
Fuck.
No wonder I'm single.
No wonder I never hear from boys again.
You know how Windows sometimes pops up and asks you to allow something to happen, yeah I need one of those things attached to my mouth.
It would help in pretty much every aspect of my life.

Hmmm I really need to get fit.
I need some motivation.
I need an exercise buddy who is going to make me work out.
I need some self control.

I also need to stop procrastinating..
I have 3 items of clothes staring at me right now that I have been repairing since yesterday and today.
They're all tacked and pinned yet I haven't taken my machine out of its box.

Moving back to Penrith on the 31st.
I'm looking forward to having some money.

Back to reality tomorrow.

New Year = New Blog

Ohhh dammit.
Why, oh why do I get myself in these situations?
Really?
Do I never learn?
And I don't know why I'm getting so annoyed as well.
I mean, it wasn't anything to begin with.
I just hate it when people let you down.
What a disapointment.
Really.

Had the best holidays in forever.

Highlights:

a 3 hr drive taking 6 hrs haha;
New years on the beach;
being wasted every day down the south coast;
sunshine;
meeting and hanging out with new people;
getting back home;
sun baking with Andrea;
knuckle tattoo;
partying almost every night;
sleeping in;
christmas sales;
walking everywhere;
early afternoon beers;
yeah yeah yeahs;
toga party...

hmm can't think of anything else just yet...

Currently in Penrith at the parentals.
Thank god for aircon.
Pretty sure I'm going to die of boredem when I move back..at the end of the month :(
Just have to keep reminding myself of the big picture.

I'm going to see Grizzly Bears with John and Mark on Thursday night.
Pretty excited..

time to get out of my pj's.