Not going to lie...feeling kinda left out right at this moment.
I was meant to go away with John, Amy, Jess, Grant, Cathy and a few others but decided I shouldn't spend my London savings on weekends away when I haven't started my new job yet.
Jaimee-Lee is visiting the parentals in the suburbs for the night and since I usually spend all weekend with the abovrmentioned people, I'm feeling kinda lonely :(
Working on the door was fun last night, except for that ANNOYING guy Jake.
Buddy, I don't know you and I don't have a mutual attraction to you, please stop slobbering on me everytime I see you!
Worked on pop up fashion shows all day today.
So many itty bitty titties!
Haven't heard from Richard in over a week.
Surely he has 1 min to send me a reply text message?
Whatever then.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Monday, August 2, 2010
Motivation proclamation
I'm so disappointed in myself...I just realised that I have not loaded any of my Good Charlotte, New Found Glory or MXPX collection onto my iPod.
What a pop punk fail.
I've accepted a position in a salon currently being furbished in a big mall in Parramatta.
I'm due to start August 28th, the wait is killing me.
Colour and product training session on Wednesday, doing hair for Myer Fashion shows on the 7th and 20th..
Slowly I'll get busy again.
I'm really looking forward to having a wage and joining the gym.
I need my routine back...sleeping-in till noon is in no way productive nor is it good for my diet to not be eating proper meals at the appropriate meal times.
I feel so sluggish and yuk.
Eww
The result of course has been a dip in my health and I have made an appointment with my specialist.
An appointment with the specialist always results in being checked into the hospital.
Drats.
Detoxing starts tomorrow.
No carbs, alcohol or sugar.
Will be fine, lack of coffee and sugar will be hard but I just need to be organised and make sure I have all my meals and snacks sorted.
Doing the rounds with the parents to their respective specialists tomorrow.
Hopefully their will be some good answers.
Miss a certain someone.
Not sure what he feels though, he say's he misses me but then I don't hear from him for over a week.
I guess he could be busy...just feels very hot and cold and uncertain.
I just wish I was better, finished with my course/training and had the money to move over to London so I could start fresh.
In such a plateau at the moment.
What a pop punk fail.
I've accepted a position in a salon currently being furbished in a big mall in Parramatta.
I'm due to start August 28th, the wait is killing me.
Colour and product training session on Wednesday, doing hair for Myer Fashion shows on the 7th and 20th..
Slowly I'll get busy again.
I'm really looking forward to having a wage and joining the gym.
I need my routine back...sleeping-in till noon is in no way productive nor is it good for my diet to not be eating proper meals at the appropriate meal times.
I feel so sluggish and yuk.
Eww
The result of course has been a dip in my health and I have made an appointment with my specialist.
An appointment with the specialist always results in being checked into the hospital.
Drats.
Detoxing starts tomorrow.
No carbs, alcohol or sugar.
Will be fine, lack of coffee and sugar will be hard but I just need to be organised and make sure I have all my meals and snacks sorted.
Doing the rounds with the parents to their respective specialists tomorrow.
Hopefully their will be some good answers.
Miss a certain someone.
Not sure what he feels though, he say's he misses me but then I don't hear from him for over a week.
I guess he could be busy...just feels very hot and cold and uncertain.
I just wish I was better, finished with my course/training and had the money to move over to London so I could start fresh.
In such a plateau at the moment.
Monday, July 5, 2010
Have entered my 2nd week of unemployment..
Everyone keeps telling me to not get down on myself and to use the time off I have to get stuff I need done.
Easier said than done!!
There isn't much work going at the moment...I don't know what to do :(
I'm not in desperate of money.
I don't have to pay rent and I don't exactly have any debts that HAVE to be paid, but I can't save at all which means London is getting pushed back further :(
I had an appointment with an employment agency yesterday and my 'Employement Consultant' Daniela was a hairdresser.
By the sounds of it she had a horrible boss and a really, really shit apprenticeship but she told me that I should see if Paul (old boss) would sign me off on my apprenticeship, to do the Cert 4 in Hairdressing at Tafe and to work part time hairdressing and in an office to get my experience up while still earning money.
But I don't know what to do!!
Should I have got myself signed off earlier?
I just don't see why it all has to be so friggen difficult!
Shoot on Saturday was soooooo cold!
I don't know how the model did it...the stylists had the worst taste and it wasn't really anything that covered much.
Poor girl.
Can't wait to see the photo's though!
I stripped Melanie's hair the other night.
She wants to go back to being blonde.
She's strawberry blonde at the moment and it's very, very cute colour on her if I don't say so myself!
Fixing Nicci's hair tonight...this will be fun.
Do not bleach your own hair at home kids!
Cutting & colouring Dans hair tomorrow night.
There is no rest for the wicked!
Everyone keeps telling me to not get down on myself and to use the time off I have to get stuff I need done.
Easier said than done!!
There isn't much work going at the moment...I don't know what to do :(
I'm not in desperate of money.
I don't have to pay rent and I don't exactly have any debts that HAVE to be paid, but I can't save at all which means London is getting pushed back further :(
I had an appointment with an employment agency yesterday and my 'Employement Consultant' Daniela was a hairdresser.
By the sounds of it she had a horrible boss and a really, really shit apprenticeship but she told me that I should see if Paul (old boss) would sign me off on my apprenticeship, to do the Cert 4 in Hairdressing at Tafe and to work part time hairdressing and in an office to get my experience up while still earning money.
But I don't know what to do!!
Should I have got myself signed off earlier?
I just don't see why it all has to be so friggen difficult!
Shoot on Saturday was soooooo cold!
I don't know how the model did it...the stylists had the worst taste and it wasn't really anything that covered much.
Poor girl.
Can't wait to see the photo's though!
I stripped Melanie's hair the other night.
She wants to go back to being blonde.
She's strawberry blonde at the moment and it's very, very cute colour on her if I don't say so myself!
Fixing Nicci's hair tonight...this will be fun.
Do not bleach your own hair at home kids!
Cutting & colouring Dans hair tomorrow night.
There is no rest for the wicked!
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Looking for work when there isn't much around is hard.
And it's really fucking annoying to have done work for someone in return for photo's and to have to constantly ask for them.
Really over everything always being difficult for me.
For once, why the fuck can't something work in my favour.
Just once.
Is that so much to ask?
And it's really fucking annoying to have done work for someone in return for photo's and to have to constantly ask for them.
Really over everything always being difficult for me.
For once, why the fuck can't something work in my favour.
Just once.
Is that so much to ask?
Monday, June 14, 2010
Who would have thought being sad would be so tiring.
Can't believe how much I've slept in the last few days.
Looking for a new job, don't like mine anymore.
I hate seeing mum sick :(
It's so cold at the moment, I don't know how I'm going to survive in London!
I hope everything changes for the better soon.
Can't believe how much I've slept in the last few days.
Looking for a new job, don't like mine anymore.
I hate seeing mum sick :(
It's so cold at the moment, I don't know how I'm going to survive in London!
I hope everything changes for the better soon.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
I seem to forget that people aren't as friendly as I am..
I went to a party with Mel last night, briefly spoke to one or two people that I had never met before and that was it.
The boys kept to themselves, the girlfriends got drunk and bitched about their boyfriends; while keeping a close eye on their boyfriends.
A few of the boys spent the whole night at the beer pong table.
Some asshole stole my freshly purchased rollies, no ciggies for me for two weeks now :(
A dumb bitch that didn't speak a word to me all night, locked me out the front.
I got harrassed to show my nipples.
And I puked..
I was blind drunk on too much jager in what felt like a house full of strangers.
I don't know these people anymore.
And quite frankly, I'm glad I don't.
They're not my kind of people.
What a waste of a night and money.
Feeling heaps seedy now.
Seeing Suzie tonight for dinner.
Have no idea where to go though...
Hanging out with Steve tomorrow.
May or may not have a crush on him.
Not sure.
Need to take the cat to the vet, poor baby has the poops!
How do you tell someone:
"I don't know if I'm over reacting or not, but I'm going to have a pregnancy test cause I haven't been feeling well the last couple of weeks and if it's positive, it's your's"?
oh shit.
I went to a party with Mel last night, briefly spoke to one or two people that I had never met before and that was it.
The boys kept to themselves, the girlfriends got drunk and bitched about their boyfriends; while keeping a close eye on their boyfriends.
A few of the boys spent the whole night at the beer pong table.
Some asshole stole my freshly purchased rollies, no ciggies for me for two weeks now :(
A dumb bitch that didn't speak a word to me all night, locked me out the front.
I got harrassed to show my nipples.
And I puked..
I was blind drunk on too much jager in what felt like a house full of strangers.
I don't know these people anymore.
And quite frankly, I'm glad I don't.
They're not my kind of people.
What a waste of a night and money.
Feeling heaps seedy now.
Seeing Suzie tonight for dinner.
Have no idea where to go though...
Hanging out with Steve tomorrow.
May or may not have a crush on him.
Not sure.
Need to take the cat to the vet, poor baby has the poops!
How do you tell someone:
"I don't know if I'm over reacting or not, but I'm going to have a pregnancy test cause I haven't been feeling well the last couple of weeks and if it's positive, it's your's"?
oh shit.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Oh wow.
I'm soooo sore :(
I moved back to the parentals yesterday.
Used so many muscles that I NEVER use, thus resulting in a sore me today.
I have so much stuff to unpack and organise.
It's going to take me FOREVER!!
At least I'm going to be able to save some money while I'm here!!
Can't believe after living with Mel for almost 2 & 1/2 years and being friends for about 6 yrs, she never once offered to help me pack or move.
I don't expect people to do things for me, but fuck John offered to help take things back to mum and dads, Lizey offered to come over and help me pack, Tanya asked me if I needed a hand with anything, Leon and Nicky both offered their assistance.
Arlene came and stayed with me the night before, helped me finish packing and helped move things down.
Alanna spent Friday night in with me packing and then took me out for a drink to cheer me up and Mel didn't once offer her assistance, nore was she even there when I moved.
You are a cunt.
A selfish cunt with no true friends.
Enjoy spending the rest of your life in your room watching tv alone or wasting your time with your adulterous boyfriend who couldn't give two shits about you.
You reap what you sow and the way your behaving, you will have nothing and no one.
Grrrr good thing I got that out!
OK another vent..
I'm not aloud to take a date to Cristina's shitty backyard wedding.
It's in the backyard for fucks sake.
So I'm not going.
I've know her since I was 17 yrs old, 8 yrs and because I'm single, I'm not aloud to bring a date.
Apparently numbers are tight.
IT'S GOING TO BE IN THE BACKYARD.
HOW THE HELL ARE NUMBERS GOING TO BE TIGHT IN A BACKYARD WEDDING?!
It's going to be a revolting Penrith wedding with revolting Penrith people.
You know the type, they grew up in Penrith, they live and work in Penrith, their favourite hang out is the Log Cabin, they go to RSL dinners every week and while the "boys" get pissed on Bundi and coke the "girls" sit and talk about their upcoming weddings or the bargins they got at the plaza that day.
Sunday is spent watching their respective partners compete in team sports.
Their friends are all couples that have been dating the same person since they were in high school and most often their friends are their fiance's friends.
They're uncultured and tacky and the only thing that comes out their mouth in reference to me is "Do they hurt?" or "do you set off metal detectors?".
Morons.
So nay.
I am not taking a day off work to go to a wedding all alone with people I don't know, to feel like a loser and will cost me $150 in a gift.
Hmm I need to work out my train schedule and such...
I kinda want to go to the plaza and come back and have my room all organised...
Yeah right!
I'm going to look into transfering my credit card into a lower interest rate card, I've only got a $1,500.00 card but I might as well save myself the interest if I can.
I need to cancel my permit and get my money back from it, get my name taken off the electricity bill for 278, change my address with all my insurances and such.
Get my name taken off the lease, get my bond from Mel.
Call NRMA...
Change my address with Russh.
Damn.
So much to do :(
I need a personal assistant!
Getting off the internet.......NOW
I'm soooo sore :(
I moved back to the parentals yesterday.
Used so many muscles that I NEVER use, thus resulting in a sore me today.
I have so much stuff to unpack and organise.
It's going to take me FOREVER!!
At least I'm going to be able to save some money while I'm here!!
Can't believe after living with Mel for almost 2 & 1/2 years and being friends for about 6 yrs, she never once offered to help me pack or move.
I don't expect people to do things for me, but fuck John offered to help take things back to mum and dads, Lizey offered to come over and help me pack, Tanya asked me if I needed a hand with anything, Leon and Nicky both offered their assistance.
Arlene came and stayed with me the night before, helped me finish packing and helped move things down.
Alanna spent Friday night in with me packing and then took me out for a drink to cheer me up and Mel didn't once offer her assistance, nore was she even there when I moved.
You are a cunt.
A selfish cunt with no true friends.
Enjoy spending the rest of your life in your room watching tv alone or wasting your time with your adulterous boyfriend who couldn't give two shits about you.
You reap what you sow and the way your behaving, you will have nothing and no one.
Grrrr good thing I got that out!
OK another vent..
I'm not aloud to take a date to Cristina's shitty backyard wedding.
It's in the backyard for fucks sake.
So I'm not going.
I've know her since I was 17 yrs old, 8 yrs and because I'm single, I'm not aloud to bring a date.
Apparently numbers are tight.
IT'S GOING TO BE IN THE BACKYARD.
HOW THE HELL ARE NUMBERS GOING TO BE TIGHT IN A BACKYARD WEDDING?!
It's going to be a revolting Penrith wedding with revolting Penrith people.
You know the type, they grew up in Penrith, they live and work in Penrith, their favourite hang out is the Log Cabin, they go to RSL dinners every week and while the "boys" get pissed on Bundi and coke the "girls" sit and talk about their upcoming weddings or the bargins they got at the plaza that day.
Sunday is spent watching their respective partners compete in team sports.
Their friends are all couples that have been dating the same person since they were in high school and most often their friends are their fiance's friends.
They're uncultured and tacky and the only thing that comes out their mouth in reference to me is "Do they hurt?" or "do you set off metal detectors?".
Morons.
So nay.
I am not taking a day off work to go to a wedding all alone with people I don't know, to feel like a loser and will cost me $150 in a gift.
Hmm I need to work out my train schedule and such...
I kinda want to go to the plaza and come back and have my room all organised...
Yeah right!
I'm going to look into transfering my credit card into a lower interest rate card, I've only got a $1,500.00 card but I might as well save myself the interest if I can.
I need to cancel my permit and get my money back from it, get my name taken off the electricity bill for 278, change my address with all my insurances and such.
Get my name taken off the lease, get my bond from Mel.
Call NRMA...
Change my address with Russh.
Damn.
So much to do :(
I need a personal assistant!
Getting off the internet.......NOW
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Oh wow.
I am actually never drinking again.
Well not to get drunk anyway.
I have spent ALL DAY in bed, in front of the tv, laptop or sleeping AND EATING.
Eating shit too.
Can't believe I'm posting this...if I'm embarrassed posting it, it's obviously not good behavior and I wont do it again.
3 party pies
hamburger, small chips & coke from hungry jacks.
left over pad sew ew
water crackers with dip
pop corn at the movies
frozen coke at the movies
bite of Mel's hot dog at the movies
and pretty much a whole BIG bag of peanut m & m's
Best bit, I hate hungry jacks and coke.
Go figure.
Fat fuck.
I NEVER, EVER eat like this.
So why the hell did I today?
Seriously cannot remember the last time all I did was drinking all night.
I'm sticking to pills.
They're cheaper, easier on the gut and I feel the best the next day.
No hang over, no come down.
Mother Fucker.
It's almost midnight and I should be on a fucking treadmill or something.
For.
Shame.
I am actually never drinking again.
Well not to get drunk anyway.
I have spent ALL DAY in bed, in front of the tv, laptop or sleeping AND EATING.
Eating shit too.
Can't believe I'm posting this...if I'm embarrassed posting it, it's obviously not good behavior and I wont do it again.
3 party pies
hamburger, small chips & coke from hungry jacks.
left over pad sew ew
water crackers with dip
pop corn at the movies
frozen coke at the movies
bite of Mel's hot dog at the movies
and pretty much a whole BIG bag of peanut m & m's
Best bit, I hate hungry jacks and coke.
Go figure.
Fat fuck.
I NEVER, EVER eat like this.
So why the hell did I today?
Seriously cannot remember the last time all I did was drinking all night.
I'm sticking to pills.
They're cheaper, easier on the gut and I feel the best the next day.
No hang over, no come down.
Mother Fucker.
It's almost midnight and I should be on a fucking treadmill or something.
For.
Shame.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Unsure..
I've been told some horrible information about people I know in the last few days...
I wont repeat it because nothing but shit will come from it.
It wont make anything better, just worse for a little while then back to normal so really there's no point in hurting people's feelings and proving myself un-trustworthy.
WHY did you choose to unleash it on me?
I don't want to know about it!
I've been home sick with tonsillitis for the last two days.
I don't really like being alone...it's boring and even though it's only while the housemates or friends are at work, I start to feel sorry for myself.
Why am I so lame?!
It also gives me time to think about all the stupid things I've said and done.
Fuck.
No wonder I'm single.
No wonder I never hear from boys again.
You know how Windows sometimes pops up and asks you to allow something to happen, yeah I need one of those things attached to my mouth.
It would help in pretty much every aspect of my life.
Hmmm I really need to get fit.
I need some motivation.
I need an exercise buddy who is going to make me work out.
I need some self control.
I also need to stop procrastinating..
I have 3 items of clothes staring at me right now that I have been repairing since yesterday and today.
They're all tacked and pinned yet I haven't taken my machine out of its box.
Moving back to Penrith on the 31st.
I'm looking forward to having some money.
Back to reality tomorrow.
I wont repeat it because nothing but shit will come from it.
It wont make anything better, just worse for a little while then back to normal so really there's no point in hurting people's feelings and proving myself un-trustworthy.
WHY did you choose to unleash it on me?
I don't want to know about it!
I've been home sick with tonsillitis for the last two days.
I don't really like being alone...it's boring and even though it's only while the housemates or friends are at work, I start to feel sorry for myself.
Why am I so lame?!
It also gives me time to think about all the stupid things I've said and done.
Fuck.
No wonder I'm single.
No wonder I never hear from boys again.
You know how Windows sometimes pops up and asks you to allow something to happen, yeah I need one of those things attached to my mouth.
It would help in pretty much every aspect of my life.
Hmmm I really need to get fit.
I need some motivation.
I need an exercise buddy who is going to make me work out.
I need some self control.
I also need to stop procrastinating..
I have 3 items of clothes staring at me right now that I have been repairing since yesterday and today.
They're all tacked and pinned yet I haven't taken my machine out of its box.
Moving back to Penrith on the 31st.
I'm looking forward to having some money.
Back to reality tomorrow.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
New Year = New Blog
Ohhh dammit.
Why, oh why do I get myself in these situations?
Really?
Do I never learn?
And I don't know why I'm getting so annoyed as well.
I mean, it wasn't anything to begin with.
I just hate it when people let you down.
What a disapointment.
Really.
Had the best holidays in forever.
Highlights:
a 3 hr drive taking 6 hrs haha;
New years on the beach;
being wasted every day down the south coast;
sunshine;
meeting and hanging out with new people;
getting back home;
sun baking with Andrea;
knuckle tattoo;
partying almost every night;
sleeping in;
christmas sales;
walking everywhere;
early afternoon beers;
yeah yeah yeahs;
toga party...
hmm can't think of anything else just yet...
Currently in Penrith at the parentals.
Thank god for aircon.
Pretty sure I'm going to die of boredem when I move back..at the end of the month :(
Just have to keep reminding myself of the big picture.
I'm going to see Grizzly Bears with John and Mark on Thursday night.
Pretty excited..
time to get out of my pj's.
Why, oh why do I get myself in these situations?
Really?
Do I never learn?
And I don't know why I'm getting so annoyed as well.
I mean, it wasn't anything to begin with.
I just hate it when people let you down.
What a disapointment.
Really.
Had the best holidays in forever.
Highlights:
a 3 hr drive taking 6 hrs haha;
New years on the beach;
being wasted every day down the south coast;
sunshine;
meeting and hanging out with new people;
getting back home;
sun baking with Andrea;
knuckle tattoo;
partying almost every night;
sleeping in;
christmas sales;
walking everywhere;
early afternoon beers;
yeah yeah yeahs;
toga party...
hmm can't think of anything else just yet...
Currently in Penrith at the parentals.
Thank god for aircon.
Pretty sure I'm going to die of boredem when I move back..at the end of the month :(
Just have to keep reminding myself of the big picture.
I'm going to see Grizzly Bears with John and Mark on Thursday night.
Pretty excited..
time to get out of my pj's.
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